I’m a Jerk

Sometimes I sacrifice honoring the Lord and others for my own entertainment.

Take me frequenting myfriendsaremarried.tumblr.com for example…

I was telling my friends that although I love Tumblr…I’ve realized it’s the ultimate pity party…but like the acceptable kind…but still kind of dangerous.

I totally love finding the humor in my current situation… However, I think it enables me a bit too. Like it makes me sarcastic toward other people rather than sharing in their joy or struggle. For example…

But when it’s on myfriendsaremarried.tumblr.com… I totally laugh at it. I think because it makes me feel better about myself– knowing other people are jerks too.

That’s messed up right?

And seriously, I think we all know– there’s a good chance I’m totally going to be that girl someday…

Convicting.

Humbling.

Someecards totally gets me too. Like please let me indulge my hyperbolic complaining spirit and justify wasting time at work…while wasting time.

It’s funny though, right?

It totally is.

However, that doesn’t really mean that it’s okay for me to find a Someecard to fit every situation at work and send it to all my friends… which I’ve definitely done the last couple weeks.

Romans 12:2 says, “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.”

You’re like, “Katie, seriously, you’re totally ruining Tumblr and Someecards for me…” or you’re like, “Really, Katie? Laughing at Tumblr and Someecards is why you think you’re a jerk…You’re overreacting.”

It might seem silly that I feel like a jerk for indulging in sarcastic memes but in all honesty, this is only what I’m willing to admit on my blog- what’s truly in my heart is much worse.

All I’m really saying is… heart check time.

Kind of like what the Lord revealed to me about music… Listening to secular music should be harmless, but I have to be aware of how it affects me and what it encourages me to think about.

“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also…” -Matthew 6:21

What do I treasure?

Being entertained, being successful, being the life of the party, being the coolest blogger, honoring the Lord in every area of my life?

Thomas K. Tewell said, “Love is spelled t-i-m-e.” I think he’s right…

What do I spend the majority of my time thinking about or doing? Whatever my time is spent on reveals what I treasure and Proverbs 4:23 says, “Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.”

I’m only telling ya’ll all of this because I’m learning…

Christians are messed up too- maybe more than most.

We don’t always like to admit it. But we should really be the first ones to own up and the last to judge others. Like we shouldn’t ever be surprised at our sin or the sin of others. After all, we believe that we’re so messed up that Jesus had to die on a cross to save us.

Which means we should be the first to give and embrace grace… and be even more thankful that the Holy Spirit promises to change us.

“The gospel of justifying faith means that while Christians are, in themselves still sinful and sinning, yet in Christ, in God’s sight, they are accepted and righteous. So we can say that we are more wicked than we ever dared believe, but more loved and accepted in Christ than we ever dared hope — at the very same time. This creates a radical new dynamic for personal growth. It means that the more you see your own flaws and sins, the more precious, electrifying, and amazing God’s grace appears to you. But on the other hand, the more aware you are of God’s grace and acceptance in Christ, the more able you are to drop your denials and self-defenses and admit the true dimensions and character of your sin.” ― Timothy Keller

Romans 2:4

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